It’s been awhile

It has been 3 months since the last time I have posted. So many things have happened both good and bad.

My weight loss journey has been going great. I am down a total of 126lbs since surgery on July 13, 2015.

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I am now in a size 16 in jeans and some larges in workout gear.

Training has taken a back seat to injuries, but I am getting stronger and working my way back. I have already signed up for 3 races with the first one in April. It is the first and only race that I did last year before surgery.

April 17, 2016  Try Tri Edwardsville, IL  Super Sprint

May 22, 2016  St. Louis Triathlon  Creve Coeur Park in Maryland Heights    Athena Sprint

June 12, 2016  Athena National Championships  Grand Rapids, MI   Athena Sprint.

August 2016  Wood River Triathlon   (this one is still a maybe).

Time to get busy and reach my goals!!! Only 25 lbs from my weight loss goal and my racing goals are starting to take shape.

I Got In!!!

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I got the email today…. I was one of 54 other women picked to be part of the Tri Equal..

You have been selected for 3 months of free coaching, donated by a coach in support of TriEqual’s Equally Inspiring program.

This program is to help bring women into the sport of triathlons and to help encourage other women to join the sport. The #50womentokona started this campaign to have equality among the men and women professional triathlete for the world championships in Kona, HI.

As of right now there are only approx. 30 professional female triathletes that go to the championships each year, compared to 50 professional males. In order for a women to get to Kona, she has to race more races than the men to qualify for a spot.

Please visit   http://www.triequal.org for more information and how you can help in the fight for equality.

 

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#EquallyInspiring

It has been awhile

It has been awhile since I updated everyone on my progress.

As of last week I am down a total of 83 LBS. I try  weigh myself every Thursday, which is tomorrow.

12184980_10206621926099581_6691825653242607972_o   Look at what a year makes!  The photo on the left was taken last October when I was making my son’s birthday cake. The one on the right was taken about a week ago.

11015862_10206608725609577_7025146808327427411_o I finally got my hair colored after a year and I took my glasses off for the picture.

I got some exciting news today. TriEqual will be announcing the 50 women who will get to experience free coaching for three months on November 25, 2015.  I sent in an application and now I am keeping my fingers crossed. They had nearly 500 applications to read and pair down to only 50.

I ordered my new suit from Swim Outlet and it should be here in the next week. I ordered a size 20, hope it fits I am ready to get back into the pool.  Going to work very hard on my swimming in the next few months. Will be getting a membership at the Rec Center here in town for the next 6 months. Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas to me!

My goal is to be able to swim 50 yards without stopping. I have always needed to stop and rest after each 25.

I am looking at my first race to be in April. The Try Tri Illinois at SIUE. I will be doing the super sprint: 150 yard swim, 10mile bike and 2 mile run.

I know from last year, I need to work on climbing hills and learning how to change gears on my bike. I will be using Mabel once again this year, as I am saving my money for an entry level TRI Bike.

11807727_10206048672808607_5378116444184697780_o  Mabel

11951120_10206276281458681_1496309771590998563_n My own GOfundme account at home.

Hugs, will update again soon.

3 months since surgery

I am down 76.4 lbs. since surgery.  I am having a very hard time seeing my weight loss at times. I see it in my clothes and under my chin, but in other places I really can’t see it.

I need to do so many things, that maybe I will see it.  My hair is falling out, mostly in the shower. I am used to it with it being long, but it comes at times when I really hate having to wash it due to how much I will find in the shower or in my hands.

I have been having issues getting in all of my water and protein in each day. And any type of exercise has been put to the side. I have been so busy with Cub Scouts and trying to find time for myself.  Thank goodness that this is my last year with Scouts.

It is getting cold here in Southern Illinois and it is making me even colder. Getting used to this new body is not easy. I am tired all of the time and I just want to hide from the world. I don’t want to go back on any anti depressants.

I feel like I am disappointing my supporters. I am not training for my next race or doing any training at all.

My house is a mess and I feel like the walls are closing in on me at times. I want to tear down those walls, but I don’t have the money to repair what I am more than willing to tear down.

“All good things for those that wait.”    I am really starting to hate that saying.

Not giving up but putting on the back burner for now

I am trying to get used to my new body and the things that I can and can’t eat.

Right now I am not doing very well on the eating part.

I am down 65 lbs at this time. I still have a way to go. I have no energy to do anything. I am getting out once a week and cutting the grass. Work is about to do me in at times. All of the energy it takes to get through my 8 hours leaves nothing left to exercise or to even cook something to eat.

Cub Scouts started last week and thank goodness, I have help this year. We had a wonderful recruitment with a total of 25 boys and more are coming.

Had to take Joshua to get his eyes checked today. He needs new glasses and even with my insurance it will cost me over $250.00.  He also needs new shoes and with the size of his foot I have to get New Balance. So this weekend it is off to get new shoes and glasses.  Looks like I need to start working some overtime.

Being a BAD mommy and TriEqual News

I must be a bad mom.

I made a comment on Facebook asking about all of the eating the J has been doing these past few weeks. He is always hungry. I know that he is going through another growth spurt. but it feels like every hour to 2 hours after coming home from school he wants something to eat. Well, it started… get him active in sport. he is bored, he needs a hobby.

Do you think I haven’t tried? I refuse to push my son into anything for the sake of him doing a sport. Yes, I dreamed of him playing sports when he was little. I wanted a left handed relief pitcher to play for the Cardinals. But as time when on the Asperger’s took over. I am not completely blaming the Asperger’s, as I am the most at blame. I didn’t take him out to the park that much or get him into swimming lessons when he was little or to the pool. Was I lazy for not doing those things with him? In a way I was and I shed tears about it all the time. I have made some really bad choices in the past 10 years concerning how my son grew up. If I make any changes now it will destroy the sweet boy that I have now, my pirate at heart.

My son is not active in any sports. He plays video games when ever he can or watches You Tube videos about Minecraft and other games.My son also has Asperger’s. The video games keep him active, he is highly intelligent and loves history, social studies and culture. I have a scholar on my hands.

I get tired to others telling me I should do this or that, get him into sports or hobby. I am about to lose it. He is me all over again. I am such an introvert and I want to make everyone happy when I am miserable on the inside.

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Now on to other news………  TriEqual has launched the Inspiring Program that will match inspiring women triathletes with coaches that will follow and coach them for a total of three months free. The hope is to increase women into the sport of triathlons.  I have already sent in my application. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I truly believe that if I don’t find a coach soon, I will end up giving up on the sport and myself. That I one thing that I CANNOT do. I have to show my son that it is alright to be as active as you can be at any size.

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http://triequal.org/index.php/2015/09/08/triequal-launches-equally-inspiring-program-to-increase-womens-participation-in-triathlon/

It has been awhile

Sorry everyone!

Things have been so busy around here with summer ending and school starting back up.

I have been keeping quite on how much weight I have lost for a reason.

I have sponsored a challenge for the Alton Bottle C.A.P ride for a food bank in Alton.

https://www.racesonline.com/events/bottlecapride

The challenge is to carry the about of pounds weight loss up on the hills along the ride. As of right now there are 2 riders that have accepted the challenge.

My training has been non existent. I am trying to get out a walk and have been doing pretty go until last week. I had some type of meeting or program to go to every night. I should have gotten up early in the morning and walked but my bed was so much nicer.

Time to refocus and get going once again.  My firs Tri of the new year will be in April.