I am how big????

I knew that I was a big girl and needed to lose some weight, but it never really hit me until I saw these photos of myself from my first ever swim meet.  I am at my highest weight ever. I weighed less at 9 months pregnant than I do today.

What is so shocking is how your own brain can play tricks on you. When I look at myself, I don’t see that I am this big.

This has been an ongoing issue for me my whole life. I have been to therapy so many times I don’t have enough fingers or toes to count that high.  Growing up I was the token fat girl in class that would get laughed at and teased. Kids in grade school can be very mean and when you don’t have the coping skills at a young age it never leaves you.

I am on my final steps in getting approved for weight loss surgery. I just found out that the office just got the last piece of paperwork that is needed. I go on Tuesday, May 5th for my last class and then see the surgeon on June 1st, with possible approval 2 weeks after. The it will be the waiting game for a surgery date as he is about 4 to 6 weeks out after you get approved.

Keep your fingers crossed!!

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11 thoughts on “I am how big????

  1. First of all I have to say congrats on your training. I had WLS in August of 2011. Please let me know if you have questions. Which surgery are you getting?

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  2. Very proud of you…I know all to well about being the “fatty” in class. It is a brutal to be labele with that. However, congrats to you for making a change that you want to change for yourself. I will be looking forward to reading about your progress.

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  3. Wishing you ALL the best on this journey!! I had WLS in September 2010, and I’ve kept off 125 pounds for 4 years now. I can say without a doubt it was the BEST decision I’ve ever made! I started running road races the first year but just got into triathlon last year and I look forward to seeing where it takes me while I cheer you on at the same time!! Good luck 🙂

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  4. Go get it girl!!! Remember that you are beautiful no matter what you look like:) I hope all goes well with the surgery, and on your iron man journey! Know that WHEN (not if) you cross that finish line you will have millions of people cheering you on and supporting you as you do now! Keep up the great work and attitude!

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  5. I loved how you described when you look as yourself you don’t see yourself as “that big”! I have the same thoughts until I see a picture of myself. How weird is that?! I wish you all the very best in your journey to iron! You can do this I know!

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