Not giving up but putting on the back burner for now

I am trying to get used to my new body and the things that I can and can’t eat.

Right now I am not doing very well on the eating part.

I am down 65 lbs at this time. I still have a way to go. I have no energy to do anything. I am getting out once a week and cutting the grass. Work is about to do me in at times. All of the energy it takes to get through my 8 hours leaves nothing left to exercise or to even cook something to eat.

Cub Scouts started last week and thank goodness, I have help this year. We had a wonderful recruitment with a total of 25 boys and more are coming.

Had to take Joshua to get his eyes checked today. He needs new glasses and even with my insurance it will cost me over $250.00.  He also needs new shoes and with the size of his foot I have to get New Balance. So this weekend it is off to get new shoes and glasses.  Looks like I need to start working some overtime.

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Being a BAD mommy and TriEqual News

I must be a bad mom.

I made a comment on Facebook asking about all of the eating the J has been doing these past few weeks. He is always hungry. I know that he is going through another growth spurt. but it feels like every hour to 2 hours after coming home from school he wants something to eat. Well, it started… get him active in sport. he is bored, he needs a hobby.

Do you think I haven’t tried? I refuse to push my son into anything for the sake of him doing a sport. Yes, I dreamed of him playing sports when he was little. I wanted a left handed relief pitcher to play for the Cardinals. But as time when on the Asperger’s took over. I am not completely blaming the Asperger’s, as I am the most at blame. I didn’t take him out to the park that much or get him into swimming lessons when he was little or to the pool. Was I lazy for not doing those things with him? In a way I was and I shed tears about it all the time. I have made some really bad choices in the past 10 years concerning how my son grew up. If I make any changes now it will destroy the sweet boy that I have now, my pirate at heart.

My son is not active in any sports. He plays video games when ever he can or watches You Tube videos about Minecraft and other games.My son also has Asperger’s. The video games keep him active, he is highly intelligent and loves history, social studies and culture. I have a scholar on my hands.

I get tired to others telling me I should do this or that, get him into sports or hobby. I am about to lose it. He is me all over again. I am such an introvert and I want to make everyone happy when I am miserable on the inside.

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Now on to other news………  TriEqual has launched the Inspiring Program that will match inspiring women triathletes with coaches that will follow and coach them for a total of three months free. The hope is to increase women into the sport of triathlons.  I have already sent in my application. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I truly believe that if I don’t find a coach soon, I will end up giving up on the sport and myself. That I one thing that I CANNOT do. I have to show my son that it is alright to be as active as you can be at any size.

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http://triequal.org/index.php/2015/09/08/triequal-launches-equally-inspiring-program-to-increase-womens-participation-in-triathlon/

It has been awhile

Sorry everyone!

Things have been so busy around here with summer ending and school starting back up.

I have been keeping quite on how much weight I have lost for a reason.

I have sponsored a challenge for the Alton Bottle C.A.P ride for a food bank in Alton.

https://www.racesonline.com/events/bottlecapride

The challenge is to carry the about of pounds weight loss up on the hills along the ride. As of right now there are 2 riders that have accepted the challenge.

My training has been non existent. I am trying to get out a walk and have been doing pretty go until last week. I had some type of meeting or program to go to every night. I should have gotten up early in the morning and walked but my bed was so much nicer.

Time to refocus and get going once again.  My firs Tri of the new year will be in April.