I must be a bad mom.
I made a comment on Facebook asking about all of the eating the J has been doing these past few weeks. He is always hungry. I know that he is going through another growth spurt. but it feels like every hour to 2 hours after coming home from school he wants something to eat. Well, it started… get him active in sport. he is bored, he needs a hobby.
Do you think I haven’t tried? I refuse to push my son into anything for the sake of him doing a sport. Yes, I dreamed of him playing sports when he was little. I wanted a left handed relief pitcher to play for the Cardinals. But as time when on the Asperger’s took over. I am not completely blaming the Asperger’s, as I am the most at blame. I didn’t take him out to the park that much or get him into swimming lessons when he was little or to the pool. Was I lazy for not doing those things with him? In a way I was and I shed tears about it all the time. I have made some really bad choices in the past 10 years concerning how my son grew up. If I make any changes now it will destroy the sweet boy that I have now, my pirate at heart.
My son is not active in any sports. He plays video games when ever he can or watches You Tube videos about Minecraft and other games.My son also has Asperger’s. The video games keep him active, he is highly intelligent and loves history, social studies and culture. I have a scholar on my hands.
I get tired to others telling me I should do this or that, get him into sports or hobby. I am about to lose it. He is me all over again. I am such an introvert and I want to make everyone happy when I am miserable on the inside.
Now on to other news……… TriEqual has launched the Inspiring Program that will match inspiring women triathletes with coaches that will follow and coach them for a total of three months free. The hope is to increase women into the sport of triathlons. I have already sent in my application. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I truly believe that if I don’t find a coach soon, I will end up giving up on the sport and myself. That I one thing that I CANNOT do. I have to show my son that it is alright to be as active as you can be at any size.