It is official!! I am now an ATHLETE! I lost my first toe nail Monday night. My son has swimming lessons on Thursday nights and Master swim is at the same time. So, Mom goes and swims and J is at his lessons. It is a win win situation! I didn’t really pay much attention to my toe but knew it would be coming off at some point. He was out of school on Monday, so after my chiropractors appointment we went swimming. I am working on a virtual Ironman challenge with a group on Facebook that I belong to and needed to get some swim time in to meet my 2.4 miles for the month. J did some practicing and he is getting more comfortable in the water. Now to just get him to keep his face in the water. But I am not complaining as of last year he wouldn’t even attempt to put his face in the water. I was able to get in 1600 yards. I should be at my goal on Thursday after Masters swim.
Now the bike is a different story, I haven’t even started on the 112 miles that I need for the month and it is now the 11th. Going to need to set up the trainer and get started.
I just about have the running completed. I checked this afternoon and only needed 12 more miles. I knew that I couldn’t do that many miles today but I was able to get in a 10K before J got home from school.
This was my view on my run today. This was a new route for me and I really liked it. It had several rolling hills that really made you work for it. If I would have followed this trail and made the loop it would have come out to be about 10 miles. So that is my next goal is to do the 10 mile loop when I have more time.
Since it is getting a little cooler and soon to be colder, I need to start looking for winter tights to wear when I run. Just looking for one pair as of right now and really don’t want to spend too much money on them.
I am also looking at what races I want to do next year and getting a wetsuit.
Oh my goodness! It has been over a year since I last wrote on this blog site. Time has gotten away from me and so much has happened in the past year.
I am now 2 years since my weight loss surgery and I have kept the weigh off. I am now between 155 to 160. I try to keep my weight around 155 or less. I have my good days and bad days on my eating.
My goal is to start writing again and this time really talk about my next goal in training and in life. I have gone back to school to finish up my RN to BSN program, with my goal in getting my MSN in Nursing Education. My goal for triathlon is to up my distance to the Olympic and then the half. With then end goal being a full iron distance by my 50th birthday.
I just got a new to me Tri bike that I am getting used to riding. It has been a challenge, but I have only been on it twice since I got it. I have ran my first half marathon in 3 hours and 9 minutes. Not be when my first 5K was over an hour to walk. I will get there and will not quit until I do.
I am down 76.4 lbs. since surgery. I am having a very hard time seeing my weight loss at times. I see it in my clothes and under my chin, but in other places I really can’t see it.
I need to do so many things, that maybe I will see it. My hair is falling out, mostly in the shower. I am used to it with it being long, but it comes at times when I really hate having to wash it due to how much I will find in the shower or in my hands.
I have been having issues getting in all of my water and protein in each day. And any type of exercise has been put to the side. I have been so busy with Cub Scouts and trying to find time for myself. Thank goodness that this is my last year with Scouts.
It is getting cold here in Southern Illinois and it is making me even colder. Getting used to this new body is not easy. I am tired all of the time and I just want to hide from the world. I don’t want to go back on any anti depressants.
I feel like I am disappointing my supporters. I am not training for my next race or doing any training at all.
My house is a mess and I feel like the walls are closing in on me at times. I want to tear down those walls, but I don’t have the money to repair what I am more than willing to tear down.
“All good things for those that wait.” I am really starting to hate that saying.
I am trying to get used to my new body and the things that I can and can’t eat.
Right now I am not doing very well on the eating part.
I am down 65 lbs at this time. I still have a way to go. I have no energy to do anything. I am getting out once a week and cutting the grass. Work is about to do me in at times. All of the energy it takes to get through my 8 hours leaves nothing left to exercise or to even cook something to eat.
Cub Scouts started last week and thank goodness, I have help this year. We had a wonderful recruitment with a total of 25 boys and more are coming.
Had to take Joshua to get his eyes checked today. He needs new glasses and even with my insurance it will cost me over $250.00. He also needs new shoes and with the size of his foot I have to get New Balance. So this weekend it is off to get new shoes and glasses. Looks like I need to start working some overtime.
I must be a bad mom.
I made a comment on Facebook asking about all of the eating the J has been doing these past few weeks. He is always hungry. I know that he is going through another growth spurt. but it feels like every hour to 2 hours after coming home from school he wants something to eat. Well, it started… get him active in sport. he is bored, he needs a hobby.
Do you think I haven’t tried? I refuse to push my son into anything for the sake of him doing a sport. Yes, I dreamed of him playing sports when he was little. I wanted a left handed relief pitcher to play for the Cardinals. But as time when on the Asperger’s took over. I am not completely blaming the Asperger’s, as I am the most at blame. I didn’t take him out to the park that much or get him into swimming lessons when he was little or to the pool. Was I lazy for not doing those things with him? In a way I was and I shed tears about it all the time. I have made some really bad choices in the past 10 years concerning how my son grew up. If I make any changes now it will destroy the sweet boy that I have now, my pirate at heart.
My son is not active in any sports. He plays video games when ever he can or watches You Tube videos about Minecraft and other games.My son also has Asperger’s. The video games keep him active, he is highly intelligent and loves history, social studies and culture. I have a scholar on my hands.
I get tired to others telling me I should do this or that, get him into sports or hobby. I am about to lose it. He is me all over again. I am such an introvert and I want to make everyone happy when I am miserable on the inside.
Now on to other news……… TriEqual has launched the Inspiring Program that will match inspiring women triathletes with coaches that will follow and coach them for a total of three months free. The hope is to increase women into the sport of triathlons. I have already sent in my application. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I truly believe that if I don’t find a coach soon, I will end up giving up on the sport and myself. That I one thing that I CANNOT do. I have to show my son that it is alright to be as active as you can be at any size.
Things have been so busy around here with summer ending and school starting back up.
I have been keeping quite on how much weight I have lost for a reason.
I have sponsored a challenge for the Alton Bottle C.A.P ride for a food bank in Alton.
The challenge is to carry the about of pounds weight loss up on the hills along the ride. As of right now there are 2 riders that have accepted the challenge.
My training has been non existent. I am trying to get out a walk and have been doing pretty go until last week. I had some type of meeting or program to go to every night. I should have gotten up early in the morning and walked but my bed was so much nicer.
Time to refocus and get going once again. My firs Tri of the new year will be in April.
I would like to be able to take a 3 month leave from work, to get things right in my world. But in order to do that, it would mean no races or any trips for me and Joshua and that is maybe.
This summer has gone by just way to fast and we never got to go anywhere or see anything together. My vacation time that I did have was spent when I had my surgery. Now, I have to work my way up in hours to be able to get any time off again. I can’t even request days in the future, until I have hours saved.
Today is a day were I wished that I had someone in my life to share this with, someone to support me and my son in decisions and plans not just financially.
Something will have to give soon, the only thing that will not be given up is my training and racing. That is for me only and I hope to get Joshua involved.
I love you Joshua and mommy will try harder.
So much has been going on that I have forgotten to write about it all.
As of today I am down a total of 39.4 lbs. Almost to my first goal, only 0.6 lbs. to go. Right now I am doing my goals in 10 lbs. segments to keep things manageable or I would lose my mind.
My biggest issues here lately is going to the bathroom. Can we spell hemorrhoids, children?? Thank goodness for spell check because I sure can’t. There is never a better sound than a plop on the water of the toilet stool. Finally after about 2 days I am feeling better. They do warn you that this could and will happen.
My rash is about gone. Yeah!
I have figured a few things out…. I can’t eat 2 eggs in one setting. I have to take about 45 minutes to eat each meal. Which equals almost 2 hours without a drink. But it is all good. I am making better choices for myself and starting to make them for my son also. We are having baked Pollock tonight, when you look at things 4 oz isn’t that much, but trying to get it is a different story. May have to eat half now and the rest later tonight.
I have started back walking and doing a great job, waiting for it to gets little cooler before heading out tonight.
I love my son. I just hate what Asperger’s has done to him.
I miss my little boy that liked to go outside and play. He wasn’t afraid of anything and loved to take a bath.
Now I can’t get him to go outside to play, he has breakdown when he has to take a shower and will not try anything new. He is scared to put his face in the water or ride a bike.
I just don’t know how to help him. I try to understand. I ask him to help me understand, but he doesn’t know how to explain it to me or to himself.
I want my little boy back!
At a swimming party today, not having fun.
I know that there are some things that a mommy can’t fix, but I wish I could fix this one thing.