It has been brought to my attention that I haven’t written in awhile………

So much has been going on that I have forgotten to write about it all.

As of today I am down a total of 39.4 lbs. Almost to my first goal, only 0.6 lbs. to go. Right now I am doing my goals in 10 lbs. segments to keep things manageable or I would lose my mind.

My biggest issues here lately is going to the bathroom. Can we spell hemorrhoids, children?? Thank goodness for spell check because I sure can’t. There is never a better sound than a plop on the water of the toilet stool. Finally after about 2 days I am feeling better. They do warn you that this could and will happen.
My rash is about gone. Yeah!


I have figured a few things out…. I can’t eat 2 eggs in one setting. I have to take about 45 minutes to eat each meal. Which equals almost 2 hours without a drink. But it is all good. I am making better choices for myself and starting to make them for my son also. We are having baked Pollock tonight, when you look at things 4 oz isn’t that much, but trying to get it is a different story. May have to eat half now and the rest later tonight.

I have started back walking and doing a great job, waiting for it to gets little cooler before heading out tonight.


I hate Asperger’s and what it has done to my family

I love my son. I just hate what Asperger’s has done to him.

I miss my little boy that liked to go outside and play. He wasn’t afraid of anything and loved to take a bath.

Now I can’t get him to go outside to play, he has breakdown when he has to take a shower and will not try anything new. He is scared to put his face in the water or ride a bike.

I just don’t know how to help him. I try to understand. I ask him to help me understand, but he doesn’t know how to explain it to me or to himself.

I want my little boy back!


At a swimming party today, not having fun.


I know that there are some things that a mommy can’t fix, but I wish I could fix this one thing.